Wednesday, September 30, 2015

I'm not a very good blogger

I often forget to keep up with the blog. Oops.

I read over some of my past blog entries, and wow - there's so much of my life that has actually been left out. How much of my life has actually changed since I first started this blog.

I will try to shorten it down to a few paragraphs. I was married in 2009. My (now ex) husband cheated on me multiple times, got a girl pregnant - the child was born two days before we got married. He cheated on me several times after that, and supposedly got someone else pregnant. Fast forward to 2012. We were having a lot of issues. He didn't like to work, he job jumped a lot. He didn't like to help pay bills. A lot of responsibility was left on me. We fought a lot. He was going out to the casinos while I worked overnights (and probably out with other girls at this time, too). He started not coming home and supposedly spending the night at his sister in law's house a lot. It just got to be too much. I told him that it wasn't working for me anymore. I asked him to move out. While he was living at his Dad's we were still talking and attempting to fix things, talking about going to marriage counseling, etc. I found out about the child. I even still tried to make things work. But, he was still lying and going behind my back. I decided to end it for good. I ended up losing my job at a sleep lab at the time. I took on a contract data entry job at Sprint for awhile. Got an apartment of my own in Missouri. We didn't actually get a divorce until 2014. (A lot of people don't know about that). Divorces and lawyers are expensive. When I lost my job and took on a contract job, my wages were basically cut in half. Rent was much more expensive in Missouri also.

I had several short horrible relationships. One lasted a little over a year. It was immediately after I split up with my ex-husband. Which wasn't smart. I wasn't ready for a relationship. BUT, it also taught me that there are guys that actually do pay bills and take care of things. Fast forward a few more crappy relationships, I dated someone off and on a few times. Not really sure why it didn't work out the first like 3 times, but it makes sense now - because we have a really solid and mature relationship now. He is an amazing person. He helps me take care of bills, he splits responsibilities, I never have to question his love for me, he never makes me feel like I can't trust him. He is perfect for me. He makes me laugh. Our personalities mesh well.

I applied for a part time job at another local hospital back last November. The manager told me about another position open at a local hospital that was close to where I was living. I applied for it, didn't even expect to get a call or an interview. I did. I got a call back and got the job. I started this job in January as a sleep lab manager. I work days now after working 10 years of overnights. It's been amazing. I've learned so much. I've had more opportunities with this company. They have crosstrained me into EEG. My resume keeps on building. I make more money than I ever have. The best part is the hours. I am not micromanaged, so I basically make my own schedule which is nice. My health has improved just from changing to days.

I've lost a lot of weight. That is still a long journey. It yo-yo's. I am down 40 lbs since Dec. 2014. I've been on a few different medications. I started phentermine in March. My doctor just put me on Topiramate since I have Migraines, but it helps with weight loss also.

We just bought a house and we don't plan on getting married at least until next year so baby plans are on hold for awhile. We discussed it and because I have had infertility issues in the past and my hormones are out of wack. My doctor and I don't think I ovulate. I don't have regular periods. TMI I know. My doctor and I came to a mutual decision (with Joe of course) that I will try birth control for one year to regulate things. Then come off it and we can try to conceive. We discussed and mulled it over for awhile before deciding this was the best decision for us. We want to really focus on us and the house but also not waste time.

So that's basically my life in a nutshell right now.