I am the definition of Stressed right now. I am really tired of people speculating or assuming they know what's going on in my life. If you don't know - ask. It's really that simple. Don't make assumptions or speculations, they are usually wrong. I finally had a night to sleep some and catch up, then I find out I was expected to be somewhere - no one told me. How am I supposed to know if no one says anything? Sigh.
I am ready for this stress stuff to be over with! I know it's only going to get worse now until the wedding is over and move is complete.
Lots of big plans this weekend, this is my last weekend off before the wedding. Tomorrow, I have to go up to Bethany and Princeton. Got a few errands up there to run. Then coming back to paint and clean. My bridal shower luncheon is on Saturday. Father's Day with J.R.'s Dad on Sunday and the family. J.R. has a doctor appt, we have another session of premarital counseling on Monday... Whew! Not to mention, that I have some more things to get taken care of as far as ordering flowers and getting some other things for the wedding.
I still need to get boxes and get to packing. Should make a run to Salvation Army this weekend sometime to drop off all the donation stuff I will be giving. A lot of things we have to get rid of probably wouldn't be worth trying to sell, not enough time....
We shall see how it all goes.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
I forgot to mention...
So lately, I have been super emotional about basically EVERYTHING.
It really doesn't matter if it's good or bad, happy or sad... I cry. It's ridiculous. I don't know where this is all coming from, sometimes I wonder if I just need a really good cry and then it'll all be ok!
We saw a band in concert over the weekend, after the Royals game. MercyMe. I've seen them several times since I was a teenager. They are a very awesome Christian band. I don't know what it is about when someone speaks, especially if you aren't expecting it - all they have to mention is a specific word or something along the same lines of things you are going through... and BAM here come the tears. What's up with that?!
One specific part of the concert, the lead singer started to speak about how he lost his father to cancer. It's easy to get caught up in the moments, get caught up in life - when it's EASY. How true is that?! It's when it's hard - that's when you have trouble. You forget to be thankful, you forget to remember the good, you only focus on the bad... and I cannot tell you how many times, I've totally been guilty of just that!
I've fallen way hard away from my faith. It's a very surreal experience when you feel something (especially, when you are not sure what that something is.) I've been forgetting about all the good in my life. I've been crying, asking why, and feeling awful. I never understood, and probably never will understand why my family has been through so much and still continues to go through a lot. I've said this before, and I'll say it again... that saying - Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger... whoever thought that up must have had that epiphany while going through a lot of crap. I can't say that makes me feel better... but what I can say is... I think I'm starting to find the path that I fell away from. I am not going to preach on to someone else... if you wanna hear it, I'll tell you about it. I hope everything falls into place for everyone. I am not shy about this, I am not shunning anyone away from God... I want to be respectful of all feelings- but this weekend really spoke to me.
I've spent far too much time away. Isn't it crazy how the one person you never thought would REALLY complete you... ends up being the one you may have underestimated. He is the most amazing person in my life. He loves me unconditionally, he strives to be a better man for me, he's shown me more compassion than any other person I've come into contact with in all my life, he's lead me to where I belong. He led me back to faith, back to God...I can't wait to be his wife.
We fight, we bicker, we annoy each other... but really, I made the best decision I ever could have when I answered yes when he asked me to marry him.
It really doesn't matter if it's good or bad, happy or sad... I cry. It's ridiculous. I don't know where this is all coming from, sometimes I wonder if I just need a really good cry and then it'll all be ok!
We saw a band in concert over the weekend, after the Royals game. MercyMe. I've seen them several times since I was a teenager. They are a very awesome Christian band. I don't know what it is about when someone speaks, especially if you aren't expecting it - all they have to mention is a specific word or something along the same lines of things you are going through... and BAM here come the tears. What's up with that?!
One specific part of the concert, the lead singer started to speak about how he lost his father to cancer. It's easy to get caught up in the moments, get caught up in life - when it's EASY. How true is that?! It's when it's hard - that's when you have trouble. You forget to be thankful, you forget to remember the good, you only focus on the bad... and I cannot tell you how many times, I've totally been guilty of just that!
I've fallen way hard away from my faith. It's a very surreal experience when you feel something (especially, when you are not sure what that something is.) I've been forgetting about all the good in my life. I've been crying, asking why, and feeling awful. I never understood, and probably never will understand why my family has been through so much and still continues to go through a lot. I've said this before, and I'll say it again... that saying - Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger... whoever thought that up must have had that epiphany while going through a lot of crap. I can't say that makes me feel better... but what I can say is... I think I'm starting to find the path that I fell away from. I am not going to preach on to someone else... if you wanna hear it, I'll tell you about it. I hope everything falls into place for everyone. I am not shy about this, I am not shunning anyone away from God... I want to be respectful of all feelings- but this weekend really spoke to me.
I've spent far too much time away. Isn't it crazy how the one person you never thought would REALLY complete you... ends up being the one you may have underestimated. He is the most amazing person in my life. He loves me unconditionally, he strives to be a better man for me, he's shown me more compassion than any other person I've come into contact with in all my life, he's lead me to where I belong. He led me back to faith, back to God...I can't wait to be his wife.
We fight, we bicker, we annoy each other... but really, I made the best decision I ever could have when I answered yes when he asked me to marry him.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Got a lot accomplished today
Today was busy!
I woke up and got ready for the day. J.R. is normally off on Mondays - but due to his back hurting, he called in last week. He decided to make up some hours today. He came home around noon, though. We had lots of things to do today!
Kim and Mary came over at 12:30pm. Kim bought my kitchen table/island set for her new apartment. We decided we wanted to get a new set when we move to Texas. Also debating about getting rid of the sofa that we have. Got it all loaded into Mary's wagon (hehe) and our cars (to carry the chairs) and headed over to Kim's to deliver the goods.
We then went out for a late lunch at Chili's - all together. Had some very good food.
Then rushed over to Panera Bread on 119th to meet with the photographer to make a payment by 445pm. Did a little shopping at Old Navy's men's half off sale. J.R. needed some new shorts and shirts. Then we ran over to Men's wearhouse, got J.R.'s Tuxedo for the wedding. I was pretty impressed that we got everything the exact colors I was hoping for. It wasn't too bad in price either, so was happy with that. Check that one off the list, finally. We ran some other little errands. Went over to J.R.'s Dad's to see if they needed any help - although we were later in the evening, didn't get anything done really other than talking. Maybe next time?! Have plans for things later this week and weekend. My bridal shower is on Saturday. I am pretty excited about that, although, a little nervous. Haven't seen the family in awhile and a lot of my side aren't able to come.
Been getting songs for the mp3 player for the wedding, and J.R. is asleep in the recliner... snoozing away. I am about to call it a day as well. I work the next two days and then off for the weekend, hooray! We have just a little over two weeks before our wedding.
Can't believe it's so soon. We have been running ourselves ragged! Sometimes I forget what day it is. Pretty crazy, but have been busy and gotta get everything done. Haven't even started packing, yikes!
When I was cleaning off the table last night, didn't realize how much stuff accumulated on top of it... got in the cleaning mood. Even J.R. helped! He cleaned the living room, looks so nice - while I cleaned the dining room and kitchen. I have been clearing through stuff, I don't even really think I'll hassle with a lot of it. Bigger items to sell - but the rest is going to Goodwill.
I think I have the perfect song for me to walk down the aisle to, which I am super excited about... it's one of my favorite songs from a movie :-) I still have several ideas, I am not 100% sold on it, though. So who knows...
I ramble too much.... I really should get to bed.
I woke up and got ready for the day. J.R. is normally off on Mondays - but due to his back hurting, he called in last week. He decided to make up some hours today. He came home around noon, though. We had lots of things to do today!
Kim and Mary came over at 12:30pm. Kim bought my kitchen table/island set for her new apartment. We decided we wanted to get a new set when we move to Texas. Also debating about getting rid of the sofa that we have. Got it all loaded into Mary's wagon (hehe) and our cars (to carry the chairs) and headed over to Kim's to deliver the goods.
We then went out for a late lunch at Chili's - all together. Had some very good food.
Then rushed over to Panera Bread on 119th to meet with the photographer to make a payment by 445pm. Did a little shopping at Old Navy's men's half off sale. J.R. needed some new shorts and shirts. Then we ran over to Men's wearhouse, got J.R.'s Tuxedo for the wedding. I was pretty impressed that we got everything the exact colors I was hoping for. It wasn't too bad in price either, so was happy with that. Check that one off the list, finally. We ran some other little errands. Went over to J.R.'s Dad's to see if they needed any help - although we were later in the evening, didn't get anything done really other than talking. Maybe next time?! Have plans for things later this week and weekend. My bridal shower is on Saturday. I am pretty excited about that, although, a little nervous. Haven't seen the family in awhile and a lot of my side aren't able to come.
Been getting songs for the mp3 player for the wedding, and J.R. is asleep in the recliner... snoozing away. I am about to call it a day as well. I work the next two days and then off for the weekend, hooray! We have just a little over two weeks before our wedding.
Can't believe it's so soon. We have been running ourselves ragged! Sometimes I forget what day it is. Pretty crazy, but have been busy and gotta get everything done. Haven't even started packing, yikes!
When I was cleaning off the table last night, didn't realize how much stuff accumulated on top of it... got in the cleaning mood. Even J.R. helped! He cleaned the living room, looks so nice - while I cleaned the dining room and kitchen. I have been clearing through stuff, I don't even really think I'll hassle with a lot of it. Bigger items to sell - but the rest is going to Goodwill.
I think I have the perfect song for me to walk down the aisle to, which I am super excited about... it's one of my favorite songs from a movie :-) I still have several ideas, I am not 100% sold on it, though. So who knows...
I ramble too much.... I really should get to bed.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Weekend
Bryson went for his regular chemo session and lumbar puncture tests this week. He was admitted to the ER today for a fever. Later, moved to ICU due to fever and dropping blood pressure. Sure do worry about the little guy. Hasn't felt good this week. Hope he gets better. Contemplating a trip down soon. I did, however, give my final notice to work today. My last working day will be the 7th/8th of July. We need to start packing up the house, get boxes, etc. I hope we can get it done in time. We are supposed to get possession of the house by the 6th. So thinking of moving the 2nd weekend of July. I am anxious, also nervous... but relieved for a new chapter in our lives. We both plan on working the same type of jobs, both have leads, so its looking good for us. We are excited.
Tonight, I am supposed to have a cake decorating class with some friends. That should be a lot of fun! Tomorrow, church and royals game. Should be fun too... Don't know about it all though. May make a trip. We'll see.
The dog has been crazy this morning already. I took his dish out of the kennel because he tends to play with it a lot and tear the rubber edge off. He ran out and knocked a candle holder off the bookcase, and then preceeded to try to eat the candle out of it and then jumped on the sofa! Needless to say, he was scolded and put back in the kennel. Sometimes I feel like the unloved parent, because he is always crazy/misbehaved when I have him in the mornings... maybe its from being in the kennel all night, I don't know. Sushi the cat is a little crazy this morning, too.
Tonight, I am supposed to have a cake decorating class with some friends. That should be a lot of fun! Tomorrow, church and royals game. Should be fun too... Don't know about it all though. May make a trip. We'll see.
The dog has been crazy this morning already. I took his dish out of the kennel because he tends to play with it a lot and tear the rubber edge off. He ran out and knocked a candle holder off the bookcase, and then preceeded to try to eat the candle out of it and then jumped on the sofa! Needless to say, he was scolded and put back in the kennel. Sometimes I feel like the unloved parent, because he is always crazy/misbehaved when I have him in the mornings... maybe its from being in the kennel all night, I don't know. Sushi the cat is a little crazy this morning, too.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Blog numero uno
Just to get a little start on the blog, I am going to write about this week's events. Who knows if anyone will actually read this stuff. I used to blog all the time, so I decided that I would start up again. We're planning a wedding (on a holiday, no less) and a big move in July. I am not sure what really made us decide to really complicate and stress our lives to the limit, but hey, it might be fun? I kid... I am really excited about this upcoming wedding. Originally, we had planned for October. We found out in March that my nephew, Bryson has leukemia. My Dad passed away in June, now with Bryson's illness - our family just really needs to pull together and be there for each other. J.R. and I decided the best way to deal with all of that is to pack up and move to Houston. We will be there for my Mom, for my brother and his girlfriend and our nephew. Since we decided to make this move in July - kind of figured whats the point of getting married in October, we'd have to come back for that... I came across the idea of a July 4th wedding. J.R. really liked the idea, so we ran with it! I can't wait for the day to get here! It's about 22 days away, and I tell you - stress?! ha, look up the definition - you'll see a picture of our smiling faces.
We met up with our photographer for the wedding today. Her name is Jeni. We met, signed the contract, and went over things. I am super excited, she seems to be a perfect fit for us. Not to mention, the beautiful work that she does.
J.R. hurt his back yesterday, woke up with it hurting. I am pretty sure he did something to it at work and probably didn't realize and sleeping on his back probably didn't help. Poor guy. He called in today and he never does that!! While we were at his Dad's house, he used "Jiggling George" - its this crazy contraption, that you put your hips/butt onto and your legs/ankles go onto another part and it jiggles your body. It's supposed to jiggle out all your kinks and make you feel better... we shall see later this morning if it helped or not.
I have to go back to work this weekend, which I'm absolutely thrilled about. It just seems like there are never enough days off, or time to get things done. I guess I am lucky that I really only have to work 3-4 days a week. I work overnights usually a 12 hour shift, but often ends up being 13,14,15,16 hour shifts... I like my job most days, but with the wedding planning, and moving... YIKES!! I really haven't even started packing up the house yet. I've gone through things - deciding what to keep and what not to keep... but that's about it. I am selling my kitchen table and island. And possibly (well I'm debating, rather...) or not to sell the sofa.
We got a house in Houston. It's 3 bedrooms, and 2 baths. Fenced in yard for our dog, and a hot tub! We are really excited about OUR first house! The dog is a 6 month old golden doodle. (golden retriever/poodle). His name is Oliver, but we call him Ollie. He is a very smart, cute, playful guy. However, our 6 year old siamese tomcat, Sushi, isn't real fond of him. They harass each other. Usually Ollie rolls Sushi across the floor trying to play with him... and then later Sushi will walk in front of Ollie's kennel meowing - more or less "ha ha, I'm out, you're not" So it's hard to feel sorry for the cat when they play.
I should close, as it's late - I am a night owl, but am getting sleepy.
I will continue to blog about our adventures and all with the wedding planning, moving, and our life of course. I will warn, though... I am a very blunt person. I will say whatever I think and feel. I am not going to sugarcoat anything. I am posting this on the web, so comments will be made. But, That's how it goes... Doesn't mean that we will listen, doesn't mean we will skip subjects or not blog about things that upset us, etc. So be prepared - as we will prepare ourselves for whatever may arise with doing so.
Thanks for stopping by, hope you continue to do so! :-)
We met up with our photographer for the wedding today. Her name is Jeni. We met, signed the contract, and went over things. I am super excited, she seems to be a perfect fit for us. Not to mention, the beautiful work that she does.
J.R. hurt his back yesterday, woke up with it hurting. I am pretty sure he did something to it at work and probably didn't realize and sleeping on his back probably didn't help. Poor guy. He called in today and he never does that!! While we were at his Dad's house, he used "Jiggling George" - its this crazy contraption, that you put your hips/butt onto and your legs/ankles go onto another part and it jiggles your body. It's supposed to jiggle out all your kinks and make you feel better... we shall see later this morning if it helped or not.
I have to go back to work this weekend, which I'm absolutely thrilled about. It just seems like there are never enough days off, or time to get things done. I guess I am lucky that I really only have to work 3-4 days a week. I work overnights usually a 12 hour shift, but often ends up being 13,14,15,16 hour shifts... I like my job most days, but with the wedding planning, and moving... YIKES!! I really haven't even started packing up the house yet. I've gone through things - deciding what to keep and what not to keep... but that's about it. I am selling my kitchen table and island. And possibly (well I'm debating, rather...) or not to sell the sofa.
We got a house in Houston. It's 3 bedrooms, and 2 baths. Fenced in yard for our dog, and a hot tub! We are really excited about OUR first house! The dog is a 6 month old golden doodle. (golden retriever/poodle). His name is Oliver, but we call him Ollie. He is a very smart, cute, playful guy. However, our 6 year old siamese tomcat, Sushi, isn't real fond of him. They harass each other. Usually Ollie rolls Sushi across the floor trying to play with him... and then later Sushi will walk in front of Ollie's kennel meowing - more or less "ha ha, I'm out, you're not" So it's hard to feel sorry for the cat when they play.
I should close, as it's late - I am a night owl, but am getting sleepy.
I will continue to blog about our adventures and all with the wedding planning, moving, and our life of course. I will warn, though... I am a very blunt person. I will say whatever I think and feel. I am not going to sugarcoat anything. I am posting this on the web, so comments will be made. But, That's how it goes... Doesn't mean that we will listen, doesn't mean we will skip subjects or not blog about things that upset us, etc. So be prepared - as we will prepare ourselves for whatever may arise with doing so.
Thanks for stopping by, hope you continue to do so! :-)
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